Taking a Step Back – My Story
Though I’ve kept up this blog for a while now, I feel led to bring you all into me – into my life and my story. I’ve recently published a book titled Freedom to Fall, which chronicles my journey to healing after losing my son Chris. This is me.
I am beginning work to publicize the book and share my story with whomever will find it. Here’s to new beginnings.
Taking a Step Back – My Story
Born and raised in Louisiana, I followed my heart to Colorado, where I attended the University of Colorado and pursued a career in Special Education. After marrying and moving to the mountains to raise a family, I discovered a calling as a storyteller, performing original stories as well as myths and legend from world cultures. Ultimately, I divorced, and after my two children left home, I made my way down the mountains, landing in Denver around the turn of the century. Then in 2003, something happened that changed my life.
In May of that year my daughter, Kate, who was in college, had come home for the summer. Chris was rock climbing in Yosemite National Park. On June 1 we were awakened in the night with the news that Chris had been in climbing accident and was dead.
The devastation and shock of that summer was soothed by the presence of my daughter and by an abiding faith. I knew intuitively that Chris was still with me and always would be. I felt there was meaning behind his passing. I wrote every day about the raw emotion of grief coupled with whatever insights came. Those journal notes became the basis for Freedom to Fall, which I began that autumn.
The book chronicles my journey through the first two years of grieving, along with a portrayal of my son in a way that captures his spirit. Just as all people have special qualities and gifts, I felt that Chris, for his 25 years of living, had much to offer in the way he loved life.
The hard times of those first two years were also times of hope and redemption. I discovered the healing power of love. I did not think that my life was over. I knew that I would fully live again, and through that belief, found my way.
Writing the book was cathartic, and the blessing was in realizing that the book could be an inspiration and comfort to others. Today, ten years after Chris’s death, I am standing on solid ground. Of course I miss my son, but we have a relationship that endures. He is my angel in Heaven.
I choose to write a blog to communicate with like-minded people. In these times when families are often spread out and neighbors may be strangers, I can’t think of a more uplifting way to establish community than through the simply act of sharing stories and ideas through writing. I write first thing every morning; it is the mainstay of my life, and I look forward to making connections.
Carol, I know your journey firsthand. Have you read my book, Ricky Roars, Signs of Love from Beyond? We have had an incredible journey to healing for ourselves & all of Ricky’s friends through our constant focus on staying positive & trusting that good always comes out of every experience we have. Did you see that we used to live in Breck?? amazing!
March 14, 2013 at 5:46 pm
So brave for you to chronicle your pain–and I’m sure your story is helping others.
April 2, 2013 at 2:42 am
Thanks for your thoughts. I like being able to pass on the things that have helped me the most. I enjoyed the 20/80 post. I like how you stand up for yourself! That is helpful to people – so many are overwhelmed by pressures.
April 3, 2013 at 12:55 am
Just want to say you are in my thoughts. I admire you, for openly writing about this. Can’t be easy. All the best to you-
April 12, 2013 at 2:20 am
Thanks so much for your kind words. In reading your blog, you sound like a very positive, caring person. Best wishes.
April 13, 2013 at 2:27 am
You are welcome! I truly meant it. Your strength is remarkable.
My blog continues to be a “work in progress”…but I absolutely enjoy minute of it! And, thank you for your nice comment. 🙂
Have a good weekend-
April 13, 2013 at 3:12 am